The best is yet to come - 3/8/2022 or "speedos on the beach"

[Redacted name]. [Redacted]Max. Might I have found yet another person to obsess over? Her voice is clear and energized with hints of goofiness in it. Her [redacted] are [redacted], her hair a bouquet, and her eyes large and brown. The world is hers. If the world weren't already hers I'd find a way to make it so. My best is yet to come. I am on radio stations with Elon, being interviewed, being reached out to. I will be the guy, the vibe people wanna be and be on. I am someone [redacted name] could and will desire as much as I desire her. I am making life my bitch. I had a thought of interviewing road construction crews just now. I am getting in contact with whoever authorities or department I need to in order to make that happen. This is something I've always wanted to do. I want to know what the FUCK they're doin. Im glad to give my mom hope and show her that we can take (back) control of our lives. It doesn't even require thinking outside the box, it literally only requires you asking yourself what the FUCK it is that you want to do--down to the littlest things and up to the biggest. I am inspired by all the people I meet and especially those I meet on IG. Other people, who I admire, can be considered case studies--people I can look to for inspiration, guidance, and even help if they're willing. I am on a beach in speedos w/ [redacted name] reading a book and discussing Haruki Murakami. Women, more than anyone else, have been inspiring me and blowing my mind--on two different levels. They've been undertaking various goals and crushing them and elevating and growing and expanding. [10 redacted names] The only guys I'm constantly in awe of are [3 redacted names]. The beauty, to be surface-level, is the second level of motivation these women provide. I see them (?) their beauty makes me want to be beautiful. Physically. Artistically. Professionally. Financially. I want to not just see [redacted] through a screen, I want to wake up with them, eat at cafes with them, study their hands and [redacted] and stomachs, [and] admire their dresses and flowy shirts as they blow in the wind against their lovely bodies.